Finally dared to look at the draft version of my boss's write up of last Friday's appraisal. It was a fair summary and perhaps not as bad in print after the event as the hours themselves.

The comment on Friday's post ("Sounds like it was a badly conducted appraisal if it made you feel de-motivated." in case you missed it), is fair.

But there is a bit of me that wonders.

IF we imagine for a moment that I'm doing a really terrible job, or I'm not up to scratch, then surely the appraisal process isn't supposed to mollycoddle me but get me to pull my socks up. Perhaps the disjuncture was because I wasn't expecting that and was shocked to see myself through my bosses eyes for a moment and felt I'd let her down.