I can't believe I'm doing this but I've filled in the form for the Head of Library post.

I can't believe it's a good idea:
- my 'qualifications' must be right on the border of acceptable and depend somewhat on how you interpret their requirements
- they know me and what they'd be getting and I can't imagine them seeing me as 'Head'
- I'm not sure *I* see me as Head!
- I'm not encouraged by the former colleague who reckoned he/she/it wouldn't touch it with a bargepole because it wasn't a real job. (I don't think 'management' per se was the target there, just that it wouldn't be working with students directly). And I can sympathise.

On the other hand I saw the calibre of some of the candidates doing their presentations for our Head post.
Maybe I am ready for a step up when I look at some of what I do now.
And I may be making a difference for students now, but perhaps I can make a bigger one in a larger scheme of things elsewhere.
Plus there's the 'encouragement' that I started this year thinking I'd never have my 'non-technical' paper accepted for a technical conference or subsequent publication etc - and look what persevering at that resulted in!

So who knows. But I'm still not holding my breath...