Permission to feel very depressed?

Phone call from the head of the library to say that they'd offered the post to someone else, who'd accepted. Hence the delay for which they apologised.

I think I feel a bit more rejected and disappointed than I'd expected to.

Still, I wasn't being told not to bother with the other interview in a couple of weeks, I had the impression they saw me in that role more than this one, so there's hope yet. But I do have to go through the process again. And more days of not knowing what the future holds one way or the other which is wearing.

And it's evidently deflated my standing in my wife's eyes. Prior to posts at this level, if I got as far as an interview for anything (which wasn't often in some cases) I'd get the job. Up north a few years back, up the road a few weeks back and with this one a few days back, I'm now three for three in not getting the job.