Well, if the purpose of this blog was to track the process of change it's going to be one of the shortest blogs ever.

Logged onto my email this morning and of a dozen or so messages one caught my eye immediately.

Head of the Library and chief interviewer writing to let me down gently and amongst talk of a 'strong field' and 'enjoyed meeting' etc, letting me know that they weren't going to appoint me.

Despite the odd sense on occasions yesterday of suspecting there would be some serious downsides to the job, it's still disappointing and hard on the heels of some difficult personal news last night leaves me feeling rather more wretched than I'd expected.

Here's where I regret telling colleagues I've even applied as it somehow seems to suggest both disloyalty that I applied and inadequacy that I've failed. And should I tell "everyone" rather than let it circulate as rumor?

Still, the email offered the opportunity of calling to get some feedback and I've arranged with the secretary I met yesterday a 1pm phone appointment. I might as well endeavor to learn what I can from the ordeal. Sorry, experience.